"I began to suspect that I was having some kind of hallucination. Triggered, no doubt, by the memory-the deja vu, the strange familiarity of the situation.
I ran through the possibilities quickly in my head. Option one: I was crazy. That was layman's terms for people who heard voices in their heads.
Possible.
Option two: My subconscious mind was giving me what it thought I wanted. This was a wish fulfillment-a momentary relief from pain by embracing the incorrect idea that he cared whether I lived or died. Projecting what he would have said if A) he were here, and B) he would be in any way bothered by something bad happening to me.
Probable.
I could see no option three, so I hoped it was the second option and this was just my subconscious running amok, rather than something I would need to be hospitalized for.
My reaction was hardly sane though-I was grateful."
-New Moon by Stephanie Meyer
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